things just got a hell of a lot less fun

horrible horrible night that has just made things suck

kind of feel very empty

laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame

if i have to stay another fuckin minute with this classist toff thinking the free whisky is going to make me jump into his fur lined bed then i will start bleeding from the eyes

there is only so long i can pretend to be having a phone call before he shuffles over offering lunch in richmond park!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

Trout is all from Rolf Nylinder on Vimeo.

I am not a religious person but right now i'm really considering praying that you get better

It literally breaks my heart to see you like this and i don't know what I'd do if you weren't here

Please please let her get better, she is so precious to me and none of us would live without her

I love you like no other and you are worth the world

This christmas and next christmas and all the christmases life can give me need you in them

THIS IS ENGLAND

This is England '88 thank you so much for showing us all this song

Mad Man (for serious)

I Believe I can Fly ( flight of the frenchies). Trailer from sebastien montaz-rosset on Vimeo.

I crave that breast that mother nature plucked so cruelly from my maker's womb

To be a woman.... yes to be a woman would be a wonderful curse

There are those futures that will never happen, that are lost in the history of decisions

These are the futures that I mourn

NOWNESS

Ottolenghi: Love is the Right Word on Nowness.com.

ahahhaha big face

so this is a shitty little picture of my makeup for a shoot i did the other day..... well fashion film where i was a space cadet, lone ranger, forest rambler and i had a flashing helmet and kitted swimsuit with hiking boots!!!

it was so much fun but freezing cold as i rambled around regent's park and changing in the back of taxis as someone poked me in the eye with a makeup brush!!

i got to eat a tasty little stuffed pumpkin though and it made me feel all warm inside like a baby penguin in a sauna :)

SAY MY NAME

hahahahha after he the trauma of flat 4 force on night ops to tackle the gigantic bee in me room i needed a little pick me up Destiny style.

SHOOT YESTER YEAR

this is one of the pictures from a shoot i did yesterday for

Holly Pascoe, Poppy Koumis, Florence Froud,Liv Anderton , Ryan Lee and Matthew Jackson From London college of fashion

TIME STARTS NOW

so I decided to take up a more aware and calculated approach to what I eat.

This picture is pretty old but it's of my body at a stage that i felt really good about.

I think i look good here and i'd like to look like this again.

This time around it will be harder because it will be just down to food intake but i think i'll manage it.

Ordered some body scales so they will come TOMORROW VEY EXCITED!!!

Drawn up a proper schedule and meal plan and exercise so hopefully i'll be back to my desired shape soon :)

Halloween

Me in the beginnings of my droog outfit - twas a night of pure joy

Living the dream

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YES YES YES YES YES YES YES

THIS CAME IN THE POST TODAY!!

He such an awesome treasure of knowledge - can't wait until i've seen all 4 discs :)

Dampener on the day

Soooooooooo I may or may not need a walking stick for possibly life?

Tried to imagine myself incorporating whatever hideous stick it is I'll need to walk into some cewl hip outfit and then realised it's impossible to look okay if you're a girl, 18 and you need a walking stick.

Didn't think my hips hated me so much, wasn't fun being unable to stand up without collapsing this morning, trying to hide from my neighbors as i crawled to my room.

OH WELL THINGS COULD INDEED BE WORSE